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Round 1 Chemo

Friday, January 25, 2008

So I had my first Chemo session yesterday. I had friends over the night before and my mommy is here. I had a really hard time sleeping Wed night, I guess I was afraid to go to bed because then Thurs morning would be there too soon.

The Chemo session is long, just under 4 hours. I feel a little hot afterwards, but pretty functional. I ate at Sammy T's with my mommy afterwards and made a trip to Target. Today has been pretty good, my friend Crystal took me to get my immunity shot and I hung at home most the day. So far so good, as long as I take meds on time, if I get outside the every 5-6 hour window for my meds it takes longer for the pain or nausea to go away. (boo hiss)

From what I have heard tomorrow and Sunday will be the hardest days as I will have the worse nausea on those days. I am trying to quit smoking so the cig withdrawl is kind of making me more frustrated than normal. But thanks to all who send love my way, you guys make this so much easier.

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