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So I might be a little lazy...

I just took a gander at my blog and realized I have not written here in 5 months. Yikes! The good news is that lots of fun and happiness has gone on in those 5 months.

First off - I actually bought and mailed Christmas presents to my family BEFORE Christmas. AND they liked the gifts. Might not sound like a feat to most, but the past two Christmases did not really exist in my mind. I totally ignored them. Being that I was diagnosed 6 days before Christmas that makes sense. SOOO I am very happy to be back in the holiday game.

Second - I turned 30 on Jan 1st. I had the most fabulous birthday week. Yes, I gave myself an entire birthday week. I had some of my most very favorite people come into town. This was by far my favorite birthday EVER. I felt so loved and special and so excited to be out of my twenties! I am so ready for 2010 and what the future brings. So Yay!

Third - I did a Breast Cancer Walk back in October. It was by far one of the most healing things I have done in the past year. I was with good friends and it felt great to support the cause. I will for the rest of my life spend time every year raising money to fight Breast Cancer. The walk I did was "Making Strides Against Breast Cancer". It was in Richmond and was a wonderful experience. Even thought the older ladies gave me a funny glance when I told them I was a survivor and that I wanted my bright pink survivor shirt. ;)

Fourth -I am in a really great place. In many areas of my life. I am taking two classes at Germanna and will graduate in May with my Associates in Business Admin and with an Accounting Certificate. I have been going to school since 02/03ish and am very very excited to graduate. I am also very proud that I have maintained a 4.0. It may have taken me many years but I WILL graduate with honors! Just don't ask me where I am going for my 4 year, baby steps people. :)

I guess that is all for now. I am happy. I am content. I am surrounded by beautiful people. I am seeing my own beauty a little more everyday. Life is good.

Much love- R

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