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Chemo #3

I had my third chemo session today. My friend Claire went with me. It's nice to have someone there; I dare say a partner in crime. Plus, since I am hooked to a machine, I get to boss around my guest to get me coffee, snacks etc. Pretty sweet, I mean they have to get stuff for me. :)

I feel better this week than last week. Every time I cross a new bridge with this deal (newest bridge = hair loss) I am forced onto the roller coaster again. I have a hard time when I am sad or upset. It is really frustrating, when I feel sad I think back to the week before when I felt good, when I was happy. I sit there and try to figure out how to get back to feeling good. The answer so far has been simple, time. Time to process what is going on. Time to process how I feel and time to figure out what I can do to make it better. Sometimes there is nothing I can do and somehow in those moments one of my friends sends a text, a card, a package or email to let me know they care. It really makes this easier. Sometimes I don't contact people back quickly because quite honestly I don’t know what to say. I have heard from so many people and I am thankful that you thought of me.

Many people have said "you’re so strong, you are brave" etc. The honest truth, you are as strong as the people around you. The families that support you, the friends that love and know you are a source of strength. Relationships are not one sided and I have seen that the people who have touched me and left great memories in my heart are the same people who I have touched and shared memories with. If I did not have people to make me laugh, to let me cry and to just spend time with I would not be doing so well.

So thank you - thank you all for your love and kindness.

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Unknown said…
Okay, I admit it, I just now did a marathon read of all your blogs.(It's my first snowday of the year!) I have two comments:
1)Love the statement about seeing the overwhelming mountain before you, but then just looking at your feet and moving them across the ground. I'll have to use that...
2)I have tried Diet cherry/ chocolate Dr. Pepper, and found it an unusual but delightful drink. Rosie, I am sure you are not shocked, as we hugely differ on a lot of "tastebud" issues. By the way, I know I am not the only one out here who likes room-temp or warm ketchup, as opposed to cold fridge ketchup.
February 22, 2008 at 8:03 AM
Becky said…
Rosie,
I only know you from the battlefield restaurant(best in the berg).thank you for letting me share in your life and letting me read your most personal thoughts and feelings as you go through this time in your life.know that even though i only know you thru the restaurant,if you need anything please feel free to call on me 540-370-4142(H) 540-604-1689 (c),i usually don't work on thurs.or friday and if you need me i will be there for you,i
have always thought of you as a very sweet and pleasant person.hope to see you soon.please keep me posted.i will say prayers for you daily and will keep you in my thoughts.may God bless and keep you now and always.
Becky
February 22, 2008 at 1:48 PM
Anonymous said…
Hey, sorry I missed you this afternoon, but I hope you enjoy the goodies I left for you on the table. Take care and I will see you soon ;-)
February 22, 2008 at 5:28 PM
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