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What up peeps. I just did my second round of chemo. I actually have fun there. The nurses are so my homies and I made a new friend. His name is Bernie and he is around 65ish. He is funny and his whole family has a great sense of humor. Before I left he made sure that I understood from this point on I must, yes must, save a seat for him next to me. Bernie is my BOY!!! I felt okay right after chemo but about an hour later felt pretty bad. It is hard to describe I guess it feels like a really bad flu that comes out of nowhere. So I took extra nausea meds and pain pills. So although my brain is real real slow, I feel pretty good. The nurses were shocked that I still had hair, and let me know that the hair loss will be increasing over the next week. I plan to have a head shaving party at my house next Fri or Sat. If you are local you are welcome to join the fiesta. I am hoping to be able to shave my head and leave a temporary mohawk. Why you ask? Well if not now, will I really...

Friday, February 01, 2008 Things are good. Besides a little muscle and bone pain from the darn rainy day! At least I have good pain killers ;) I am so thankful for the messages, emails, cards etc. It is really nice to hear from all of you. I am still really bad at replying at times and hope that does not upset anyone. I have made my house into a rec center with availability for mulitple TV shows, movies and/or video games to be played in 3 differant rooms. (Plus I have lots of snacks) So if you are ever bored or just want to waste your time with me (phish song anyone?) feel free to call or stop by. I like company and due to low immunity for the next six months my time out of the house will be limited. I am running low on cell phone minutes, and in fact have been charged insane rates for that reason. So if you have ATT/Cingular call me all you want. If you have something other than that you can call after 7 - text me up the wazoo (I have unlimited texts) or call me on my home n...

Wednesday, January 30, 2008 So I have seen/heard of two shirts that I must add to my collection of t-shirts... 1. Save Second Base 2. Yes they are fake, but the real ones almost killed me Freaking Hilarious - Feel free to add your own funny cancer shirts and of course, feel free to buy me the above shirts if you find them before I do. xoxo - Rosie

Tuesday, January 29, 2008 I got the results from the BRCA-1 Genetic test. This is the test to let me know if I have genetic mutated genes that made me more prone to get cancer. This test is important because it can affect my family members and it almost decides the type of surgery I will need to have in 6 months. Unfortunatly, the test result is positive, which means I did have cancer in my genes, and most likely the best course of action for surgery is a double mastectomy. I am not excited about the results, but it is what it is. This is more information than I knew yesterday and it will help to guide future decisions. Take Care kiddos - Rosie

Jan 19 2008 What up peeps. So one of my dear friends from High School is doing the Avon Walk for Breast Cancer in May. She is doing the walk in my honor (which makes me a celebrity, right?!) So if you are crazy athletic you can join the team or if you would like to you can donate to her walk efforts. Each member needs to raise $1800, so every dollar helps. This is a great cause (duh) and makes me feel happy inside. Thanks for doing this Crystal! Check out her page: (if you copy the whole thing including the weird letters, numbers, symbols you go directly to her page). http://info.avonfoundation.org/site/TR/Walk2008/WashingtonDC ?px=3855547&pg=personal&fr_id=1430&et=f2y1Vn84REX2nUyo8pKKiQ..&s_tafId=253813

January 14, 2008 Well I no longer have to "remember" I have cancer. Now I just wake up. Which is nice, as I think that means some of the shock is wearing off. I have decided on where to get treatment and I now have a chemo start date, next Thurs 1/24. It is nice to have a plan laid out. My mommy is coming to VA next week and will stay with me for a week. Life is always nicer when you have your mommy to take care of you. Time is a funny thing, each day seems like I have 48 hours in it; however, I have known about "it" for less than a month and I swear it feels like I have been processing and working through this for a few months. I have spent the past 15 or so years collecting good friends; I really feel blessed with so many awesome people in and about my life. Good friends and family makes this whole deal a lot easier. Please note that I am really bad about returning phone calls and emails. Please dont take it personal, I swear my brain power is hovering a...

Friday, January 04, 2008 Okay - you guys ready for the next update? If not stop reading fools! I went to 4 dr appts this week, of which two were Onocologists. The good news is both Ono. think I should do the same treatment which equals about 4 months of Chemotherapy (every 2 weeks), followed by surgery and radiation (6-8 months total). I am leaving on Monday to go to FL and see my parents (they just moved there a week ago) and go and see a doctor on Wed at M.D. Anderson. I am going to have a pretty long talk with my parents after the doctor and try to figure out the big question, where to do treatment, in FL or in VA. There are many pro's and con's to both and honestly I have to just talk it out with my mommy and daddy. At this point I really no longer have any modesty with breast exposure as I have been looked at and "fondled" by so many people at this point I might just relocate to a topless beach. At least then I dont have to keep putting on those lovely ...

Dec 21 2007 For those of you who don't know, I found out recently that I have Breast Cancer. This is a shock to me and everyone around me. I am right now working on the acceptance of this and I am taking baby steps. Fortunately I have amazing people in my life and I have had the past 10 years to really get to know myself. I know what I can and can't do and I have been prepared by God for this experience. With that said, I have started writing again (kind of). I am standing before a mountain and you are on the other side. If I look up at the mountain it is overwhelming, but when I look at my feet I feel the ground and I walk. There is a long trail before me with moments keeping me from continuing and moments where I find your bridge and I cross. I know that I have a rough road ahead of me, and most of you have no idea what to say or how to even absorb this information. THAT IS OK! This is difficult for everyone. Right now I need everyone to be as "normal" as ...