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Intro to the Big C

Dec 21 2007

For those of you who don't know, I found out recently that I have Breast Cancer. This is a shock to me and everyone around me. I am right now working on the acceptance of this and I am taking baby steps. Fortunately I have amazing people in my life and I have had the past 10 years to really get to know myself. I know what I can and can't do and I have been prepared by God for this experience. With that said, I have started writing again (kind of).

I am standing before a mountain and you are on the other side. If I look up at the mountain it is overwhelming, but when I look at my feet I feel the ground and I walk. There is a long trail before me with moments keeping me from continuing and moments where I find your bridge and I cross.

I know that I have a rough road ahead of me, and most of you have no idea what to say or how to even absorb this information. THAT IS OK! This is difficult for everyone. Right now I need everyone to be as "normal" as possible with me and if you want to say something to me right now the best words are that you love me, you support me and you are here for me.

As you read this, instead of posting an "I am so sorry" message, tell me something funny. Share a memory of something we have done together that is funny, or tell me a stupid joke (love them) or go ahead and finally tell me how you have secretly been infatuated with me (I know there are a few of you). Above all else right now I have to laugh, fortunately I am freaking hilarious (in my own head) so I am going to be alright.
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Wren said…
Hi Rosie,

Babe is helping me get started in your Blog. We hope it works.

Love, Patsy&Babe
February 5, 2008 at 2:31 PM
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