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C update - FL visit

Friday, January 04, 2008

Okay - you guys ready for the next update? If not stop reading fools!
I went to 4 dr appts this week, of which two were Onocologists. The good news is both Ono. think I should do the same treatment which equals about 4 months of Chemotherapy (every 2 weeks), followed by surgery and radiation (6-8 months total).

I am leaving on Monday to go to FL and see my parents (they just moved there a week ago) and go and see a doctor on Wed at M.D. Anderson. I am going to have a pretty long talk with my parents after the doctor and try to figure out the big question, where to do treatment, in FL or in VA. There are many pro's and con's to both and honestly I have to just talk it out with my mommy and daddy.

At this point I really no longer have any modesty with breast exposure as I have been looked at and "fondled" by so many people at this point I might just relocate to a topless beach. At least then I dont have to keep putting on those lovely "gowns".

Thanks to everyone for the outpouring of support and positive vibes. At this point the "I am so sorry" line is reassuring and no longer something that frustrates me. So I am pretty un-offendable :) So if there is anything you want to say...I still suspect I have a few unvoiced stalkers...go ahead and say it.

Take care kids, I will let you know when the real deal is about to go down. Oh - I am also going to cut my hair tomorrow, and donate it to locks of love, so after tomorrow my hair will be the shortest ever, well since my mom gave me a bowl cut back in 87.
Peace out - R to the Z
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