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Here we go...

It is Wed, which means Chemo is tomorrow. Wed seems to be my "thinking day", the day with the most racing thoughts and I still get nervous about Chemo.

I think I only write around 5% of what I think. My brain is always ticking away, thinking about all kinds of stuff. Still trying to figure out what life is about, where I am going, and what I want to do - well that kind of stuff plus the whole cancer situation.

In a weird way Cancer has brought people from my past back into my life. That is nice. I get nervous before I see someone I have not seen in years. Mostly because I look like a cancer patient. I keep waiting for me to see someone and have them cry upon the sight of me. I really really hope that does not happen - can we say AWKWARD! Hee - that word looks funny in all caps.

Anywho - I am doing well - still trucking along. I get sad, I get mad, I have fun, I get tired, sometimes I fall into a void of nothing in front of the TV. You know there are a lot of emotions to sort through. Time both creeps by and flys - depending on the hour.

I have saved all the cards I have received because I intend on writing everyone back - I just have not found the words yet. Plus, I need to buy a ton of stamps ;) If you sent me something thank you and I really do plan to write you back!

My friends that organized Team Rosie for the Avon Walk are still about $3,000 away from the goal. If you can please donate to the cause. The money that is collected helps fund Breast Cancer treatments for cancer patients without insurance. Each member of the team has to raise $1800 so please donate to the girls that have not met thier goal yet.

http://info.avonfoundation.org/site/TR/Walk2008/WashingtonDC?pg=team&fr_id=1430&team_id=46063

Check y'all later!

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