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Balls of Fire

Most of you know I am now an ex-smoker (catching the cancer helped that to happen). With that comes renewed taste and smell abilities. That has caused me some peril as because of the chemo I am way over sensitive to smell and taste and spend large chunks of time with a metal taste in my mouth piece (no bueno). So this blog is about perseverance. I have decided to overcome a large hurdle today, a challenge if you will. I purchased atomic fireballs. I am about halfway through my first one. Whew those puppies are intense. I keep fighting through the burn because I know once I persevere (scream = word of the day) and make it to the sweeter center of the "ball of fire" I will experience the great joy of reaching my goal. So here's to making it to the sweet center.
Holla - Rosie

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Becky said…
hey rosie,
just wanted to stop by and check on you.hope you are doing as well as you can.miss your smiling face at restaurant hope to see you soon.remember if you need me i am willing to help out.read your blogs for updates love the"BALL OF FIRE" blog.good luck and keep smiling.
your restaurant friend,
Becky
March 12, 2008 at 7:10 PM
Anonymous said…
Damn, Rosie-
Chemo symptoms sound alot like pregnancy! I can't be around alot of food smells, am constantly nauseous and have a metal taste in my mouth too! I think your situation might be a little worse, though. I think the jury's still out. Hey do you have to push something huge through a very small opening at the end of chemo? Love ya, honey!
Rachel
April 17, 2008 at 10:34 PM
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