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Surgery Update

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Last Friday I had a lymphnode removed on my right side and a "port" put under my skin on my left side by my collarbone. The port is where they will dose me with the Chemo treatments, this will help to preserve my left arm from getting all jacked up.

Surgery went well, I had a great care taker with me afterwards (LGA's for life). I have been on pain killers since then which makes me pretty loopy. If you want to imagine what it is like to be me right now do the following.... A) Drink a few beers to get on the same delayed mental state I am in from pain killers. B)Lay down, now try to get up without using your arms. Do this multiple times and then let me know how bad your neck, back and chest feels after a few days.

I think I may need a craftmatic (whatever they are called) bed that can dump me out on the floor. Anywho - on the real, I am in pain, but this will pass and until that point in time I fully intend to be loaded on pain killers.

Hopefully in the next 6:48 minutes the Packers will beat the Giants and it will be on for the Superbowl.
Later Kids - Rosie

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