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Friday, February 01, 2008

Things are good. Besides a little muscle and bone pain from the darn rainy day! At least I have good pain killers ;) I am so thankful for the messages, emails, cards etc. It is really nice to hear from all of you. I am still really bad at replying at times and hope that does not upset anyone.

I have made my house into a rec center with availability for mulitple TV shows, movies and/or video games to be played in 3 differant rooms. (Plus I have lots of snacks) So if you are ever bored or just want to waste your time with me (phish song anyone?) feel free to call or stop by. I like company and due to low immunity for the next six months my time out of the house will be limited.

I am running low on cell phone minutes, and in fact have been charged insane rates for that reason. So if you have ATT/Cingular call me all you want. If you have something other than that you can call after 7 - text me up the wazoo (I have unlimited texts) or call me on my home number 540-898-2046. I can't afford to go over on minutes again!!!

Yesterday was my favorite day so far. I felt fantastic, saw some friends I adore and went wig shopping. So far no hair loss, but I expect to see that happening in the next week or so. I have decided to shave my head when the hair loss gets bad as I think clumps of hair falling out is more tramatizing then getting a buzz cut.

So thats all for today - hope you are are well.
xoxo Rosie

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