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On the Real

Tonight is the official "lets shave heads" night. I think I have 4 friends who are down with it. I plan on capturing before and after photos of everyone. I hope to make a hawk happen for pictures fun. There will be a blog on the party tomorrow.

On the real, this has been one of the toughest weeks. I guess going towards bald and "really feeling like a cancer patient" might be the problem. This whole situation is such a roller coaster. I really do not wish it on anyone. You start to wonder if people are doing things "because you have cancer". I mean in a lot of cases people are and that is really just a reflection of love and appreciation of me. You are just forced to deal with so many things at once, you have to slowly let out the pain and frustration. You have to slowly digest the entire situation, all the things you already know you have to face are too difficult to imagine at the same time.

This is a constant learning lesson; I have to learn to be very tolerant and sympathetic to everyone around me. People get so nervous talking to me (a laugh a little inside when I see it) and often I just have to let the conversation happen and answer questions. I totally understand how strange this is for everyone - I mean honestly in a way it might be easier for me than for you guys - as I always know exactly what is happening.

Before I starting writing this I was feeling sad, it really shows how therapeutic it is to express yourself and vent out the emotions inside in a positive way. I feel much better and am ready to gear up and shave some people's heads!

Much love

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