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Make a plan and then watch it burn!


Hello

I made a plan.

I spent time thinking about it and working out the details.  I was feeling pretty good about it.  In retrospect pretty sure that was my first mistake!

Soooooo......My mom hurt her ankle and cannot put pressure on it walking or driving.  She is in a lot of pain and will not be able to make the drive up for my surgery.  I will now be spending the first week of recovery here at home vs. with my parents in NC.  (Prayers for a speedy recovery for mom is appreciated!)

So I needed a new plan quickly and I was starting to panic about what to do.  I wasn't planning on having to make meals and wasn't planning on going up and down stairs right away.  Wasn't planning to dodge my boxer from jumping or sitting on me.  Plus Jon has to work Fri, Sat, Sun and Monday so I was worried how it would all pan out when I get home from the hospital on Friday.  

Right away my dear neighbor Denise stepped up to calm me down and to let me know she will not let me wither away alone in my house.   She will be here for me and make sure both Murphy and I are fed.   A few friends have offered to come by and bring food.  So I was starting to think this will be ok.   

I am trying to wrap up stuff at work and I am feeling the pressure that I don't have many days left.  Today was super busy and I was getting ready to leave and worked myself into a panic over all of this.  And then I got a text from my dear friend Trudy.   A few messages and a short talk on the phone and just like that Trudy is going to come visit from DE and help me through my first days home from the hospital.  I mean talk about timing! I'm having a mini breakdown and then 10 mins later it is all good.  

So right now I am feeling a little better and a little brighter that this will all work out ok.   I think I will definitely need some help with food my first week or so home.  If that is something anyone is able to help with please send me a message on Facebook.  So far I have Friday 10/6 and Saturday 10/7 covered.   All I need is one meal a day I can sort out the rest with cereal and oatmeal.  

Please keep me in your prayer and positivity lists.  I am a week away from surgery tomorrow and I am feeling anxious and nervous.  

Hugs - Rosie


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