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Well well well.... Let's see, I have since I last wrote, graduated from Germanna (Finally!) and started school at an affiliate school of the University of Mary Washington. My first class is business law and honestly I kind of avoid doing the reading. When it is time to read I find I must do really important things like, dishes and laundry etc. But I am glad to be continuing my school and will hopefully graduate with my Bach in a few years. I was able to get down to SC and see my sister and her family, which was a short but great visit. It had been WAY too long since I had seen my niece. I also just recenlty went to NC and saw my mom and dad. Again, way to short of a visit but still nice to get to see them. I headed to NYC at the end of July to celebrate my friend's birthday and had a really good time. It was my first long trek in a bus, which was interesting but totally worth it to save BIG money. I don't really have to much to say, just that life is good. I am heal...

I spent some time today reading emails. I put a bunch of emails that I was sent back during the whole "cancer thing" into a folder. Today was the first day I went back to them. I felt so blessed as I read them. I am really forgetful these days and reading the words of love and encouragement from the past was really beautiful. One of my greatest struggles over the past year has been allowing myself to feel emotions. I did not even realize that I had emotionally shut myself off. As I was physically healing from the chemo and surgeries I started to become overwhelmed with emotions. I was nearing the time to go back to work, and I started to freak out. I knew that if I did not start to process everything that happened I would completely lose it. The thought of that terrified me. So I started seeing a therapist to try to learn how to process and cope with it all. I had to go back through the past year, and as I did, I realized that I had shut down my ability to feel emoti...

I just took a gander at my blog and realized I have not written here in 5 months. Yikes! The good news is that lots of fun and happiness has gone on in those 5 months. First off - I actually bought and mailed Christmas presents to my family BEFORE Christmas. AND they liked the gifts. Might not sound like a feat to most, but the past two Christmases did not really exist in my mind. I totally ignored them. Being that I was diagnosed 6 days before Christmas that makes sense. SOOO I am very happy to be back in the holiday game. Second - I turned 30 on Jan 1st. I had the most fabulous birthday week. Yes, I gave myself an entire birthday week. I had some of my most very favorite people come into town. This was by far my favorite birthday EVER. I felt so loved and special and so excited to be out of my twenties! I am so ready for 2010 and what the future brings. So Yay! Third - I did a Breast Cancer Walk back in October. It was by far one of the most healing things I have done ...