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Well Well Well - here we are in Dec. My official day back to work is this Wed, I was planning on today being my first day but ran into some issues with doctors notes - so Wed is the day.

I am excited to be going back to work, and continuing to morph back into a normal life schedule. I had a really good thanksgiving week/weekend and all is well - except for my brand new computer (3 months old) totally taking a nose dive on Sat. Hopefully my dad can walk me through how to fix it without having to wipe the entire hard drive. But alas, this is part of owning technology. 

I am still flying pretty high and feel lots of love for lots of people. I guess it turns out that I am a LOVER not a HATER. Hmmm did not see that one coming.

I guess the only thing I have to get out is that I have been cheating on my blog. Yes, I am a cheater. I have spent the past month writing via pen and paper AND in my head. I feel bad because over the past year, blog, you and I have been pretty close and it just seems that I don't really have time for you anymore. I have been tossing and turning at night, trying to find the right words. So here it is - Blog I just need a little space, it's not you - it's me. I mean I don't want you out of my life completely, I just need time to figure somethings out. I hope we can still be friends. 

Well that is all for now, hopefully next time I write you, my heart will be in it more. 

xoxo

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