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Happy holidays to everyone, I hope you are enjoying time with your family.

Well my Christmas was nice, I spent time with 4 different families that I hold dear. I did however, avoid most of the holiday flair this year. I guess I have too many memories from last year and how insane the holidays were, after being diagnosed with cancer. So I kind of avoided the whole deal, I did not even get my tree put up, I did get it out of the closet, just never took it out of the box.

I only got presents for people that I would actually see, so most of my family with have to wait for me to get my act together in January. (I know I suck)

I am preparing for my 29th birthday on Thursday and I am kind of hoping that will snap me back into action. I remember last year, I had a great time seeing the Transmitters play, but the entire night was full of me remembering that I had cancer. So my thoughts were, "dance dance, yay it's my birthday, oh crap I have cancer", repeat until 4 am. I am a believer that how you spend your new years shapes the coming year, so I made plans to be around some of my favorite people in a nice relaxing carefree setting. I dare say I will be spending time with a few of my "staple" friends, as they have been in my life for many years.

I wish all of you a prosperous new year, and I have already decided that 2009 is going to be my year - so bring it on!!!

Much love - R

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