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For my stalkers

So I guess a few of you stalkers out there may be wondering how I am doing. It has been a while since I have written.

I have spent the past few weeks trying to be normal. Well I guess we all know that "normal" is a stretch for me. ;) On the real, there have been ups and downs, but at least no chemo. I am a little surprised that I still have a lot of the side affects I had while on chemo, sleep issues, fatigue, trouble using my brain etc. I was hoping that would go away after chemo, I guess I just have to be patient.

At this point I am excited about surgery. It is the final piece of treatment. Once I have surgery I don't have any more "have to do's". I just need to heal. I don't have to wait every week or few weeks to hear an update from a doctor.

I have been trying to push myself lately to be a "doer". Simple things, do the dishes right away, wash and put away clothes at one time (not end up with a pile of clean clothes in my room on the floor), simple everyday things. I guess I have been trying to incorporate more discipline in my day. I have lost a bit of discipline because of the fatigue and previous chemo side affects. So hopefully by the time I have surgery, I will be a more efficient doer and I will be able to bounce back after surgery quicker.

I guess that sums it up, I have good days, I have bad days - but I am content with where I am right now and mostly ready to face the next part.

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Filia Ecclesiae said…
I am NOT your stalker. Just cuz I know what you're wearing and doing right now doesn't qualify me as a stalker. Geez, you're so paranoid. ;) Hehe ... love you!!!
July 29, 2008 at 2:49 PM
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