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Good news.....No radiation needed for me!!!! Whew, what a relief. I really really really did not want to do all that Radiation involved, as it would of extended my cancer completion time by four months. So I am a very happy camper today. :) Rosie

I surprised myself recently. I thought for sure that the days after my last Chemo would be great. I mean, I completed six months of chemo, which is something to celebrate. However, I found myself doing quite the opposite. The past few days have been some of the toughest in a while. I thought about this in my car today. I realized that I can only handle so much of all this at a given time. I think finishing chemo actually turned out to be a breaking point for me. I have found myself teary eyed and easily irritated for days. I haven't liked talking on the phone, even with some of my favorite people. Lots of little things have been getting to me. These are all signs that I am mentally going downhill. I have found, in the past that I can go on this trail for quite a while before I realize it is happening. I am glad that I figured this out after 4 days. I guess I am just a little fed up with the whole thing. I am tired of dealing with Cancer. I am tired of looking differen...

I am officially done with Chemo. FINALLY! I started Chemo in January and I have completed 16 3-hour Chemo sessions. I am pretty happy to be done with that chapter. I have to go back to the hospital tomorrow for another MRI, I had one on Monday and they need another one. At least they are not going to charge me for the second one. I am heading to Georgetown Hospital on Tuesday to talk about Surgery options. I guess I am more comfortable with the idea of Surgery as I can say the word now. Two of my very bestest friends moved to SC today. So although I am happy to be done with Chemo, I am sad because they totally rock and have been a huge part of my support system for the past seven months. They have spent time with me every week, well more like 4-5 days a week, eating dinner, watching movies, just hanging with me. I love you guys very much and will miss you!!! I am thinking about buying a nice wig next week, I just found out my insurance will pay up to $350 for a wig. Although I am rocki...

I have been writing in my head the past few days, not quite making it to paper until today. Things are good, really good. Minus some pretty severe fatigue and sleeping issues. But as time goes on you get used to that, it is part of the game. I have been assessing my friendship qualities as of late, trying to figure out who I have been a mediocre friend to the past six months. I find that sometimes those the closest to me are the ones I have not been the best to lately. Not that I throw sticks at them or anything, I just keep them on the back burner as far as their lives go. It is just that cancer is so all consuming. It is hard for me to escape it. I have taken care of all the things I have control over lately, so I have been doing the waiting game dance for a while. Waiting to find out about radiation, waiting to find the right surgeon and reconstruction procedure. Waiting, Waiting, Waiting. And while I wait the world is still spinning around me, most the time with me trucking along w...

I officially have two weeks left of chemo. Having started this in January - I am pretty excited to be so close to done. I am still not sure if I have to do radiation and I should know that answer on June 19th. I also found out today that I go to Georgetown hospital on June 24th, to talk with the surgeons up there. So for right now, I have all the "need to do's" scheduled. I just have to wait. It is weird I almost feel strange to be done with Chemo. I have had a chemo schedule going for so long and now I will be done. Don't get me wrong I am pleased as punch to almost be done, it is just I have been going for so long it is a part of my weekly schedule. My hair is growing back muy rapido, so I am really close to having a full head of hair, and by that I mean a pretty beast looking buzz cut. You know I am a pretty tough chick and I must say a buzz cut really kicks that up a notch. Well that is all for tonight, I hope you all have a nice weekend, keep cool.