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This past week has been strange. I went to my 6th Taxol Chemo appt - so the good news is I am half-way done with my second round of Chemo. (yay) However, I think my body is starting to get maxed out. I do not have the severity of side affects that I did with the first type of chemo; but I think all the chemo is starting to take a toll. So I struggled a little this week. Not to bad but just my mind and body are a little weaker than normal.

This week I saw a young guy in chemo - first time I have seen anyone close to my age. Turns out he is younger than me and I think he has to go more than once a week. I think they are giving him much stronger drugs than I get and more often. It made me realize that the actual chemo I am getting right now is not so bad - I just have to pay attention to my body and mind and make sure to rest.

I think laughter is underated as a medicine. I can tell you laughter and faith are what keep me going, what help me to stay positive. Please note that for me positive does not mean happy all the time. Positive for me is understanding where I am, knowing what I can and cannot control and trying to make the best of my situation.

I have mostly good days - days that I am able to find time to rest, time to work, time to play. A day where I can balance everything out. My bad days are the ones where I am too tired to do anything, when my body is in so much pain it hurts to lay down. Those days too are temporary and will pass. In a way I appreciate the bad days because they make my good days so much brighter.

I wanted to give a shout out to Crystal, Justine, Anna and Ana who are all taking part in the Avon Walk this weekend. You girls rock and I hope it does not rain on you!!!!

Much Love -
Rosie

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