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One week to S - Day

Well well well, where has the time gone? I have been busy the past month working, cleaning, and spending time with friends. I have been operating on a semi-normal schedule and have not had to many difficult emotion days. Well at least I don't remember them, Chemo brain is not fun when you are trying to remember important things, but is great when you can't remember the bad days. I still can't sleep like a normal person, which is frustrating, but honestly it is nice to have some consistency in my life.

So for those of you who love drama, good news, I am losing it a bit. (Bet you were getting a little bored with the last few blogs, come on, I know you were) The impact of surgery is hitting me. One week, 7 days. I have seven days to wrap up all my work duties, take care of house stuff and prepare to have a 10 hour surgery.

Talk about intense pressure. I started crying when watching some of the heartfelt Olympics’ commercials. Heck I cried when I saw the color blue the other day. Yeah - so it is safe to say I am a little emotional. I don't feel any guilt over this, I mean I could have started this emotional break down weeks ago, at least I waited this long.

I know that in a week I will no longer be scared of dying on the operating table. (good thing) I will just need to focus on recovering from the surgery and accepting my new appearance. I think anytime you remove the fear of death, you can only go up.

So - if you pray, pray for me. If you are an energy person, send me some good vibes. If you have any encouraging words, say them. If you love me, tell me so. If I owe you money, consider it a donation. ;)

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Anonymous said…
HEY ROSIE,
I AM KEEPING YOU IN MY PRAYERS AS ALWAYS!HOPE ALL GOES WELL 4 YOU ON THE 21ST,WISH YOU A SPEEDY RECOVERY!I'LL BE LOOKING 4 YOU TO COME TO THE RESTAURANT TO SEE US!MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND BE WITH YOU ALWAYS!IF I CAN DO ANYTHING 4 YOU PLEASE CALL ME!TALK TO YOU SOON!
LOVE BECKY
August 19, 2008 at 12:11 PM
Anonymous said…
Hey Rosie -

You are in our thoughts and prayers. I wish you a speedy recovery. Let me know if there is anything I can do.

Donna
August 19, 2008 at 4:05 PM
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