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I see how much mental outlook affects life. We all face difficult times, difficult situations. Such is life. It is how you handle yourself and the actions you take that define you. It is now that I reflect back to times in my past, times I did not handle myself well. Mistakes I have made, people I have hurt. I try really hard to be fair and to be kind but the reality of life is that we are imperfect people.

I often sit and think. I think about how fortunate I am. I think of people who are facing more difficult situations than what I am dealing with now.

I think at the same time about how unfair all of this is. How angry I am that I am forced to spend a year of my life dealing with all things associated with the disease.

I find that no matter what I am thinking, I am okay. I think that is true for all of us. It is how we choose to think in the current moment that rules us. I try hard to find perspective and search out peace each day. Mostly I am at peace with what I have been dealt and I have the perspective to realize things could be much worse.

I am today, exactly where I am meant to be.

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