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Here we go again...

So...I have my second surgery scheduled for Feb 2nd. I have not really taken the time to write about it because, well because after an 11 hour massive surgery this 2-3 hour jam is not that intimidating.

I guess my fear with this one is that it could be the last one, which is great but also means I am entering the "this is how you will be" phase of my reconstruction. The past surgery was difficult for many reasons, painful, scary, very permanent in a no turning back way, very emotional as a woman etc. So I have been coping with how I look physically but at the same time knew I had another surgery to refine it all.

I have on the emotional front been enjoying my therapy sessions, trying to come to terms with the past year, and trying to improve my overall emotional health. I am working hard to surround myself with the positive and have a knee jerk reaction to negative settings. This too will balance out with time.

I have in addition, been working on my communication and honesty with myself, my friends and my family. I am trying to be assertive and considerate. All of these things are healthy, just difficult to do sometimes. Especially the honesty part where I have to realize where I am unhealthy and where I have been unfair or reactive to others.

So all in all, I am doing well and still working hard to be a healthy loving person.

The recovery from this surgery is much less time than the first and that is encouraging to me.

I appreciate all the positive vibes, love and prayers you have sent my way - and hopefully will be able to adjust to this next portion of my "cancer experience" without to much struggle.

Peace and Love -
Rosie

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